Introduction to me

Well, here goes... New blog. What is it about? Well, whatever comes to my mind I suppose. One of my life goals is to write more so I'm starting here. Will it turn into a book? I doubt it but, hey, you never know.

SOOOO, me. I'm 34 this New Years' Day. I'm married. I've got half a dozen biological kids. I raised 4 in addition to those. I honestly don't think I'm a good wife or mother. Everyone tries to reassure me that I'm fine but seriously. I hate cleaning. Occasionally I enjoy cooking but it's not high on my list of priorities. My kids drive me bananas. I hate to hear them fighting. I am not the June Cleaver type. And I can't say that I want to be.

I am also a full time college student. At least until the first week of May. I am due to graduate with my bachelor's degree in technical theatre. I am a stage manager but I work some other technical positions as well. I work in lighting, stagecraft, sound, you name it. I will be stage managing the production of Assassins at my undergrad, UNO, this spring.

I work far too much, far too often, for far too little monetary compensation. I love what I do. The person to person compensation far exceeds it. I can read people's body language fairly effectively and I mother everyone. This drives my husband nuts.

I am selfish and a bitch. And I know it. I bite my tongue most of the time, something that my instructors are thanking their lucky stars over. Get a drink or 2 in me and you are more likely to hear what you don't want to know. Do I drink a lot? No not really. I think about drinking more than I actually drink. I recently told a friend, I think I'd be an alcoholic if I actually had the guts to drink more often than I do. Instead, I stress out, chew my fingernails, get very little sleep and wish I wasn't so responsible. Because if I'm really honest, I don't drink more often simply because I know that there are things that I have to do the next day and I can't afford to be hungover or even worse, still drunk.

I will be attempting to get a few things off my bucket list this year so you'll be privy to those if you hang around. There's things like taking pictures and getting into grad school. The grad school one is already upon us. I sent my grad apps out last week. Now I'm in the waiting period. I was told that I should hear from the schools in three weeks. I have applied to UCIrvine and Columbia University in NYC. Which is my top choice? I really couldn't tell you. Used to be UCIrvine but I got to visit Columbia University and I fell in love with NYC.

I'll be including things I've read. What I love. What I hate. Pictures. Important events in my life. My day to day schedule and routine. All the boring things and the happy exciting things that make up my life.